Another Day In Paradise
Another day at work missing Carrie. And for those of you thinking this question, the answer is "yes. I do realize how pathetic I sound". I called her last night. I know I probably shouldn't have, but I just missed her so much. It felt really awkward, and she basically told me I had tricked her into doing some things she didn't want to (what?!?!?!) and that she never wanted to see me again. THe color drained from my face,a nd it felt like someone had punched me in the stomach. I begged her to reconsider. I told her I loved her (yes, I said the dreaded "L" word) and told her how much I'd missed her, and how wonderful I thought she was. I told her how I missed her smile, and the way her front teth just barely showed, and I missed her smell, and her hair, and her laugh. it's amazing how being hurt liek that can make you lose all of your inhibitions. I'd never told anyone how I felt like that. She said she was sorry, and then asked me to never call her again, and hung up. Just like that. I feel like my world has completely fallen apart. I don't know how she can affect me like this, since I've only known her for a week. I had a hard time getting out of bed today. So now I'm at work, staring at my computer, unable to think about anything but her. I just want to go home and sleep until the pain goes away.
When will this hurting stop?
posted by JD Peterson at 3:56 PM
3 Comments:
Man, I'm so sorry for all that is going on. From the sound of your weekend together, I thought it would be great. Here is what is probably going on with her. She probably has fallen for you faster than she thought she would. Men are more willing to fall in love and go with it. Women tend to need to step back and analyze their feelings. I don't think she hates you, but is scared because she loves you already and wants to make sure it is something she really is ready to commit to. I know what you mean about being in love and only knowing her for a short time. I proposed to my wife after only knowing her for two weeks. How nutty is that?! Fortunately, she felt the same way and we have been together ever since (14 years). Give her time, but don't give up. Don't call yet, she will do that when she realizes she wants to be with you. I would bet that is the path she chooses. Hang in there...
3:37 PM
Thanks. That gives me some hope. It just sucks for now. I never would have believed that someone would propose that quickly (two weeks) until I met Carrie. Now I think i understand. :)
4:32 PM
erm... connect these two phrases:"I feel like my world has completely fallen apart" and "I have only known her a week".
4:31 PM
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