A Week Already?!?!?!

Wow, I'm sorry everyone. I can't believe it's already been a week since I posted. My how time flies.

Things are going much the same as they have been for the last few weeks. I still take my drugs. I still go to therapy. I still hang out with Erik from time to time. Life is a bit monotonous right now, but getting better. The voices are still there from time to time, but that's getting less and less frequent. I'm still fairly optimistic, but I don't know if I'm ready to go back to work. I knowi've mentioned I'm goign to call my old job, but I just haven't been able to bring myself to do it. Last night I had a really strange dream.

I was walking through a field of grey grass which was about waiste deep. The grass was swaying gently, only it wasn't in the breeze. I was underwater. But I could breath, and I could feel the currently gently pushing and pulling ym body as I walked. Everything was silent, as things tend to be when your underwater. As I looked closer at the strands of grass I could see each strand of grass ended in a tiny gray head, and each of the heads had a monstrous looking face, long and stretched, with mouths filled with row after row of razor sharp teeth. They weren't biting me, but they were moving their mouths, as if they were trying to talk to me, but they couldn't communicate. Then, they began to sway more and more excitedly. Suddenly, the ground began to shake, and about fifty feet in front of me, a building began to surface from the grass.

The rumbling stopped, and I could see the building surrounded by an outer wall. The outer wall looked to be about seven feet thick. It was very square in its shape, everything was blockish, and it was made out of a grayish orangish stone. There was a rectangular outer wall, with castle looking towers on the four corners (kind of like what a rook looks like in chess). There were stone steps leading up to the front entrance (which also somewhat resembled a rook, only a bit wider), and just over the wall I could see a larger building within the outer walls. I walked through the main entrance, and came to a stone courtyard which was open to the sky. There were symbols and docorations carved all over the floors and walls, and on this side of the walls, I could see many, many pillars which were holding up the walls. The walls weren't actuall y seven feet thick as I had originally thought when I saw them rising out of the ground, they were, in fact, mostly hollow. The main building was a giant cube, and the front of it had two giant pillars built into the wall. I was inexplicably drawn to the building, and I walked up to the large double doors. They were ornately carved with flames and fires, and a man's face. It was very pretty, but a bit unnerving. I pushed on the doors, and they opened. The main room of the building was dark, but light was shed into the room from outside. I could only make out two main features of the room, and then I woke up.

First, there was a giant statue in the back. It was a man, with his arms extened outward, palms upward, as if he were showing you the palms of his hands. The statue was glinting brightly, and it looked like it was made out of copper, or maybe bronze or gold. Some sort of metal though, that's for sure.

The second thing I noticed, after the statue, was the floor, and this was what made me wake up. The floor was made out of stone, but it was carved to look like hundreds of children. All of them had horrible, twisted expresions on their faces, and they looked so scared and miserable I started to cry. I backed away from the door, tripping and falling down the stairs (all still in the slow motion movement, as if I was underwater), and that's when I woke up.

Pretty weird, eh? I'll have to mention it to my therapist.

I've started a dream journal. That's how I remembered so many of the details from the dream. It's pretty cool to go back and read the dreams I've had.

Well, that's all for now. Otherwise, things are still looking up. Today is a good day.