Home Again!

Hello Everyone, I am now happy to anounce that this message is being typed to you from my old "ghost inhabited" apartment. They let me go a day late, but that's fine with me. it feels good to be back here, and living without fear. It feels almost like the last two months or so never happened at all. There are no voices in my apartment today, and I'm not afraid. That's a big step in the right direction for me.

I have a few things to say. First of all, thank you to everyone who has helped me with advice, with words, with jokes, and with prayers. You all really helped me get through a tough time. I told my therapist about my blog, and she said it was a wonderful idea, and that I should keep it up. In fact, she asked my permission to go back and read all of my entries, so she could better understand what it was like for me to go through all this stuff. It's a place where I can tell people about my thoughts, my fears, my hopes, my dreams, and never have to worry about being hurt. The worst that could happen is someone leaves a sarcastic ior rude comment on here, and I just ignore it. Hellman Jackson already did that, so I'm already adept at ignoring the jerks. :)

But I did want to say something kind of rude. This blog, this place, is sacred to me now. Its my place, my tiny little haven where I can come to be myself. I wish people could keep their comments positive, but I guess that's not the case. I have a lot of bad things going on in my life, and I guess what I'm saying is, if you guys have a disagreement, or want to argue and fight about something, then feel free to do it somewhere else. I don't want to come here and find fifteen comments posted which is an arguement between too people, each calling the other a liar. Remember that this is my blog, my place, my world, and if you're going to come into it, then please have some respect, both for me, and for the other people who come here. Poeple should be free to comment or say what they like without worrying about reprieve, or anger. Brandon, Justme, and Aimee, I understand that you all have differences of opinion, and you get mad at eachother, but don't use my blog as an excuse to go after one another. When I read your fighting, I didn't know if I should laugh outloud, or burst into tears. The part I found funniest, was that two people who both claim they are christian and follow christ, where so caught up in yelling at each other, trying to prove each other wrong, and accusing each other of being a witch or a liar, that they lost sight of Christ's greatest teaching, love. I'm not a biblical scholar by any stretch of anyone's imagination, but didn't christ teach "Love yourself, Love god, Love your neighbor, and Love your enemy"? So maybe before you come to my blog talking about who is or isn't this or that, and getting nasty and mean, you should think about how rediculous you sometimes sound. So please, feel free to jkeep reading. I value your insights, your words of encouragement, and your help, but your attacking eachother, and occasionally me, does no one any good. Keep that in mind next time.

Sorry to get of on a tangent there. Sometimes my train of thought wanders, and it's hard to focus on any one thing. My therapist said the drug I'm taking could possibly do that to me as a side effect. Oh well. I guess I'll learn to live with it until I'm well enough to do with out the drugs. Hope your all doing well.